To be Confident and Charming...Believe it Never ends

"The faster I find the bottom, the sooner I turn it around. It seems as though I forgot just how far down that I can go in an instant." The lyrics grabbed my inner thoughts with such force I felt like I might convulse. The truth wrings my thoughts to the point it stings. I've had a rough past week, but I'm not going to sit and complain about it. There's always something that comes out of these kind of weeks. I know you're all dying to hear about my new job, but all I do is place books back on shelves after people use them. As for my trip to Russia....I have yet to iron out the details.
I feel like I should warn you all though that I've been drug back, with nails digging into the mud and my legs kicking, to the point I frequently find myself. If my life was a book, I'd be starting a new chapter. What I've learned I will keep and apply, but I search for more. It struck me that this was a new chapter while staring at a white wall in the dusty library reading room. A voice spoke the lyrics, "there's nothing you can do to stop from aging. All you have is this day. Every thought is a blessing. Every breath that you take. Everything outside of right now is illusory. It's not real. The past, the future, they don't exist. All you have is now! Is that enough for you?"
Now take a moment and reread that.....
Did you?
I'm serious now.
I don't care how old you are...I bet you have stated the phrase "Oh to be young again" or an equivalent of it. I'm pretty sure I say it weekly, if not think it daily and I'm not even twenty two. So what's this chapter going to be about?
Well, exactly like every other one. Yet again I'm at the bottom and am hoping to find out more about myself with each groping handhold I take out of the darkness. Yet I know it won't be dark for long because I have an eternal light within...one that grants me immortality.

And only be His grace am I forever young.