Snow like Dust upon Ancient Books

The smell of old library books wafted through the stuffy air of my small bedroom. Dust settles on the pages of the open texts, just as the snow is settling on the ground outside. It's been snowing since I've returned home three hours ago and it's still snowing hard. The ground is blanketed in a white duvet a few inches deep. Puffy, large snowflakes dance through the air, spiraling, twirling, settling on top of each other to form a perfect quilt handwoven by the creator.
It's beautiful. What else can I say? I could actually go on for pages describing the individuality of each snowflake and how out of the zillions that have fallen not one single one is alike. How is that? Have you ever wondered about that? I do every time a snowflake catches in the web of the screen of my window. It's simply amazing. Breath taking.
Now I'm sitting asking myself a question. Why in the world am I writing this out after I've just spent the last two weeks writing term papers? Well I've finished them and I want to write something I enjoy. I want to update everyone on the exciting news of St. John's. Wait for it............................
And I guess that's all I've got to write. Take care.









Kidding. In all honesty not a lot has been happening in my life with the end of the term coming up. I've been attempting to sort out St. Petersburg, but with my prof having pneumonia and these assignments, final tests and papers being due this week I just haven't had time to meet with him, let alone clean the house I live in.
One exciting thing is that I am typing this on my new computer! Yes the old one is well on its way out the door. I'm so tempted to throw it out the window as I've wanted to do so many times, but I think it'll stay safely in my room for gaming or movies until I can return it back to Red Deer where it will become my computer for composing as it started out to be. What a romantic end for it, ending where it started.
I can't say it was exciting getting my computer as it was quite the struggle to get it working to this point. After a week of waiting to reinstall the software I was able to do so in a 2.5 hour session with Dell on the phone.  Now I think is the point where I add how much I detest Windows 8 and how difficult I find it is to navigate. I would say that I'm a pretty tech savvy kind of person....but this is just impossible. So the Indian man I was talking to on the phone wasn't much help when he went through numerous steps in what I had to do without me being able to get off the lock screen. Struggling to keep up I found it rather frustrating and wanted to talk to a supervisor. In the end I didn't get that opportunity, just glad to be off the phone.
However that wasn't the end. I had to call them the next day to fix the problem of brightness as my computer screen was attempting to burn my eyeballs out. So squinting I followed the Indian man's directions. This man was much more specific however, giving much simpler directions to the point I was sitting there three steps ahead of him.
Him: "You are now on the desktop screen. Now look down at the bottom left corner and see the little e symbol. Please click that and it will open the internet."
-pause-
Him: "Have you done that?"
Me: "Yes....."
Him: "Now you see a window and at the top of that window is an address bar with a bunch of letters in it. Please click that and delete them all. Then type w....w.....w....."

And thus our conversation continued to proceed. After 2 hours I was finished and my computer seems to still be working, so I'll take that as a good sign.
Christmas is coming upon us. I plan on doing all my shopping this weekend so that I can focus on studying for my exams the coming two weeks. And then....in 16 days I will be back in the land of Alberta. I'm excited, but trying to contain it so that I can stay focused. That's hard though when all you literally dream about is your family and dog back home. It'll be a good holiday. But I should be off to study for my Japanese exam, now that I have time. I pray you're all doing well and hope you stay safe over the holidays.

Happy Holidays!

"Ever Thought about that there's never been an identical sunrise?"

The smell of a white board marker wafts through the air as a long list appears beneath the felt tip. The list starts at the top of the blue board, messy letters cascading down to the metal rim holding the square together. A drawing of an owl peers back at me as my eyes skim over the messy list headed with the simplest two words that carry so much weight I can almost physically feel it on my shoulders: "To Do" with a neat line beneath it. Falling back in my chair I put the cap on to halt the fragrance from settling further within the corners of my room and stare up at the constellations mapped out on my walls.
The voices of Beautiful Eulogy break the silence of the deserted house, the  brown walls staring at each other in the slowly darkening halls and rooms. I straighten my back in an attempt at better posture and press my socked feet into the carpet, wheeling myself back to my desk that's cluttered with numerous books, too many pens for the amount of hands I have, and Kleenex. It's now I determine my obsession with Kleenex...
But this is exactly what is going on in my life the past few weeks. I've distracted you, the reader, from what the purpose of this post is about. I don't want you to know my every obsession and what I do every second of my life. For if I wrote about that you'd be wasting your life and bored out of your mind. Let's make it short and simple. I've been dealing with everything Satan seems to be throwing at me successfully distracting me from the main purpose of my life. To find time to read and study my bible within the past few months I've come to realize is just not happening. I lie to myself reading a chapter or two before going to bed before falling asleep and forgetting what I read. That isn't the point of reading the bible. It's not a book to just pick up and read then forget. No we're commanded to memorize and study it. It's not a storybook like the books I've been reading endlessly for school. It's supposed to be part of me, part of my life. How can I go about being an influence to the youth I'm working with in the church and to my Christian brothers and sisters when I can hardly recite anything from memory? It disturbs me that I've been caught up in all these distractions and shoving my God on the shelf. Sure that might sound a little harsh, but I'm not going to sit here and try to raise myself up to some heavenly position because we all know that I'm nothing but a grain of sand on a beach in the universe. I don't deserve what God's given to me. I have to continually remind myself the only reason I'm where I am is because of Him. Nothing that I've done. It's all been Him and His will.
However as depressing as I seem to be making this blog I do want to express my gratitude for the prayers that have been prayed this week for me. My mother informed me of her churches prayer for me and I have to thank my friends around me who are praying for me. It's helped me immensely the past week and continues to give me strength to keep my head up and keep pushing on. But I guess I want to say now if you're still praying, please pray that we don't get distracted from these earthly distractions and rather be distracted from this earth by God and his word. The lion of the devil has attacked and thrown me into a frenzy lately and I'm positive I'm not the only one. God can fight that lion, let him do that for you. I'll be praying this for you.

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